With Love, Lu

Folding laundry is something I usually do in a hurry because I just want to move on to the next chore and be done with my domestic duty for the day but yesterday it was a very nice moment for me.  I don’t know why but as I sat down the laundry basket, full of Maya’s still warm clothes in her bed, I just kept looking at those little panties and sun dresses and it took me from that room to about 6 years ago when I asked Matt why he wanted to have kids so bad.

Well, I never really wanted to have kids.  I love them but I thought it would be hard to fit them in my life. I was always a dreamer; I wanted adventure and honestly never felt the need for kids and did not think too much about it. This was until almost 2 years after we were married. I never felt as if something were missing.  I never thought we needed to do it for any reason, but my heart was ready to love someone with Matt. I wanted to share this experience with him because I knew we would be a great family and our child would teach me how to be the mother I was always so scared to be.

So, I was right. I needed to have a child with a personality as strong as mine to keep me on my feet. BAM! Like Matt says, it’s fire with fire. Sometimes we fight like adults and sometimes just like two kids but as I was folding her little clothes yesterday morning, I felt immensely grateful to God. All those clothes, I bought for her. That little person is my daughter and she owns my heart. I am not going to say it’s easy, because I do struggle.  I struggle with her fits for nothing, not having time to enjoy my husband like I used to, going to the grocery store with a list and having to leave empty cause she is screaming at me for not letting her get the second cookie, for my freedom… and the list goes on.  I always hear, “they are just kids, that is what they do” and I understand that but I am a woman, a person.  How about me and my lovely 30-something years that won’t come back?  I found the balance (not too long ago).  I am not amazing in everything I do and I am ok with that. I take care of myself, my marriage and my daughter and we love each other and we have lots of amazing times and some hard times but in the end it’s all worth it. So as I was folding her little clothes I felt the most amazing sense of responsibility. I was there just folding the clothes but I am here to shape the woman she will become. I am responsible for her everyday life events that will lead her to the choices she will have to make later on in her life and this is the most hard, yet amazing, job that someone can have in this life. As I was putting her in bed last night I thanked her for the amazing day we had together and finishing the day the way we did, sharing peanut butter ice cream and going to PetSmart to see the little fish and doggies having a hair cut, just me and her.

“I used to say, kids are a handful but I now think that it’s much better than have an empty hand.” Read that somewhere I can’t remember where but it is so true!

Matt will be home tonight!

Happy Wednesday!

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Look who had a haircut yesterday!

We slept until 9 am, had breakfast together and left for a very nice day out, just the girls, like she loves to say

We did some shopping for fall (will make a post to show what we got later), had lunch at McDonald’s and went to Maya’s favorite park. We had a great time!

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Sunday morning we all sat down on the couch and watched a very cute movie with Maya

It brought childhood memories to Matt and I and Maya is now officially in love with Harry. She couldn’t stand seeing him cry saying goodbye to the Henderson family and her eyes were all teared up.  The face expressions were priceless!

This week Maya does not have school and she is excited to have some mommy and me time. She has requested to go to Disneyland to ride “the purple  hotel that has an elevator that drops us”… yep, we took her for the first time to Tower of Terror at California Adventure last Friday. She had already reached the requested height for months but I just could not imagine taking Maya there cause I simply hate that ride. Apparently she doesn’t. We were leaving the ride and I asked her if she enjoyed and she responded, “Yes, mommy, but I am all done with that!”. After we finished the next ride she asked if we could go back to the elevator. We didn’t go but I was proud of her, she is such a fun and brave little girl and maybe all she needed was having mommy and daddy next to her holding her hands.

Here is a picture of the picture I took of Maya’s first ride at Tower of Terror

(I really wasn’t having that much fun. I was just trying to be upbeat for Maya, trying to sell the idea that the ride was very cool!)

 I am taking Maya to Disneyland this week but I am NOT going to this ride by myself with her. I hate it. I will tell her it’s closed or something. Bad? No. Maybe this will be a Maya and daddy thing from now on

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Here are some cute pictures I took of Maya yesterday afternoon. We were sitting on our front porch enjoying the weather, dolly baths and cupcakes.

She loves Ants. “Look mommy they are so beautiful!”

The neighbor brought us some cupcakes

Cute stuff

Daddy left to San Francisco yesterday around 5 pm and he will be back on Wednesday.

Have a great week!

Hi everyone,

I hope you are all having an amazing weekend. Let me just tell you, my Saturday has been just how I planned it to be. Woke up around 9:30 this morning and Maya was all dressed for the day and already had her belly full of fresh made pancakes… made by daddy of course.  It is her request every weekend.  She is a pancake girl, just like her mama.  I had my pancakes, coffee and with good music in the house I did all the laundry, cleaned the house and went grocery shopping.  I tried to have Maya take a nap this afternoon, she looked very tired after being at Disneyland until 10:30 last night.  After 40 minutes I went to check on her and she was laying down in her bed, wide awake, laying down with legs crossed, singing Taylor Swift and with a smile on her face she said:

Maya: Hi mommy

Me: Hi Maya. You were supposed to be sleeping by now. You look very tired, honey!

Maya: I am singing the Juliet song mommy

Me: Well, Maya, this is nap time not singing time and you know what happens when you are tired and you don’t take a nap. You get very cranky.

Maya: Let’s do this, mommy. We both pray for God to not get me cranky. Dear God I don’t want to be cranky. Amen. Mommy, it’s all good now.

And I think God heard her.  She held strong until about 8pm when she came to me and asked to help her to get her pj’s on and go night night.

So, we didn’t do much today and that’s how we planed. I love having nothing to do some Saturdays. Just relaxing at home with good music and home made food sounds just perfect to me.

Tonight, my lovely husband and I watched Jerry Maguire (such a cute movie) while snacking on parmesan cheese and sipping some good red wine. What a perfect day!

I will end this post with a little about me.

I…

I am… grateful to wake up everyday to my amazing family

I want… to be healthy and strong for my loved ones

I have… big feet

I wish… I could have more date nights with my husband

I hate…  knowing that people abuse animals

I miss… our life in Europe

I fear… needles

I hear… my playlist while I’m on my computer

I use… sunscreen every day

I wonder…  how life would be if we had another child

I regret… nothing

I love… reading books to my daughter

I enjoy… reading gossip magazines

I can’t… sing

I never… tried any kind of drugs

I watch… reality tv

I feel… good when my home is clean

I will never forget… the first time I held my daughter

I need… to have more patience

I always… start my day with coffee

I don’t… start my day without coffee

I cry… when I fight with my mother

I sometimes… need to calm down and enjoy the ride

I am not… a very social person

I usually…. go to bed after midnight

I should… exercise more often

Have a great night!